A night in the desert.

We all dream, It's just an illusion of our mind. I have dreamt many things, I dream while watching movies, hearing lecturers & while reading books. Etc..
Here is one the dream which i dreamt last night which happened to be so mysterious and woke me up in the middle of the night!

Stranded in the desert, with no sight of human activity for miles around me, I want to panic, but I am too confused and unsure about this reality to panic.

“This is bliss isn’t it? No more noises, no more interaction. Just the two of us… We can live whatever life we choose. No need to answer anyone. No need to follow any norm”.

“In this desert? There is no life around us. Not a single person to be seen. Nobody to run to for help” I argued.

But her face remained impassive. It always was like that. Even in the most terrible of circumstances, her face would remain like none of whatever happens around us matters. None of this could affect us. With a soft smile and a satisfied sigh she replied, “Look around you. The clear water, the plants, the creatures crawling… This is life. It is the desert life. You won’t need to run anywhere for help because there are no people around. And anyway,” she turned to face me, her face bringing some kind of a haunting calmness with it, “I am here with you, aren’t I?”

She turned back to pick on the swollen leaves beside her, humming a tune only she knew. I still wished I could panic. I wanted to feel scared, terrified even, lonely and helpless. But all I could feel was that sense of haunting calmness that her voice brought to me. I shut my eyes to bring myself back to reality, where I can feel something… anything… But that didn’t help. She looked at me again and shook her head at what I was trying to do. “Don’t… Don’t be like that. This is what you wanted. Freedom, space, time… somewhere far away from everything that exhausts you with its existence. This is what you have been yearning for. Now that you have it, don’t squeeze yourself out of it”. She leaned forward and placed something green on my lips. I took it in my mouth, something juicy, something alive. Definitely alive. I twirled it around in my mouth, squishing it against the roof of my mouth with my tongue. She was watching me, smiling at me. She looked like she approved.

I stayed there staring out at the vastness of my yearning and she decided to wander around for a while, leaving me with my thoughts. As soon as she was out of sight, they all rushed back in, the panic, the fear, the loneliness, the disgusting taste in my mouth and a sense of pure helplessness. I lie there in the sand, tightly bound with thick cables that were eating into my flesh every time I struggled. I screamed out for help, cried out in pain. I forgot to breathe and began gasping for air, gulping in the icy cold air and screaming some more as they pierce into my insides. I began wriggling like a worm trying to catch the attention of someone, anyone. Sand entered into my nose, my mouth, my ears, but I didn’t stop. Not even for a second. I screamed and cried as loud as I can and then I heard her.

She was walking towards me. Calm face, soft smile, her dark hair trailing behind her, touching her softly on the side of her face.

“You are alright”, she said.

And suddenly, I was. Once again that feeling of nothing rushed inside me, pushing out everything else. She helped me sit up and adjusted the binds.

She helped me to some water and said, in a whisper, “That was why you wanted to leave. All of those terrible feelings, eating you inside, rotting your mind and killing you. You won’t ever feel like that again here, with me. You didn’t want to be left like that and that is why you have me to take care of you. You trust me, remember?” and once again, I looked at her face, those haunting eyes and her long, long hair blowing in the wind, caressing her face and mine and I nodded. Yes, I remember, she is the only one I trust. There is nobody else, just her. She is the only one who is real, who is true. Everybody else was always pretending. No more of that. No! And I tucked her deep inside my mind, safe and protected from everything in the outside. No matter what they say or what they show me, she will remain right there. Deep inside, where she has always been. Keeping me safe, showing me the truth. Just her and me…

After All This Time (Part - 1)

What can you say about a guy who lost his girlfriend by the time the two of them were about to change their rings? 
That he forced to lose his heart? That he was madly immersed in the love of his fatal girlfriend that, after she was gone, forever, he scripted an immortal story in her memory forever? Or may be that, he went back to her to get his love back and made his mark?
Here's an interesting story of a boy who never lost his courage to get his girl back to his life!

KUSH PANDEY, a 26 year old handsome and successful man, who was perfect in everything and famously known as the living example for other men of his age. He works in famous IT company and his package is around 50 lakh per annum. He had his luck going in his way in everything he was doing but, who knew his fate had written something different in his luck when it comes to marriage life. He had rejected many proposals earlier but agreed to one later which he fell in love just by seeing her photo and It was she, The GOWRI RATHOR!

KUSH'S DAD :-  Son, you must go to Ranchore.

KUSH :-  But, why dad?

KUSH'S DAD :-  I have informed Gowri's father that you have agreed.

KUSH :-  So, I should go?

KUSH'S DAD :-  Son, to get to know her personally you should go to her place.

KUSH :-  Yes dad, i will.

Kush was chosen by Gowri's father who was also a famous businessman in Ranchore. He boarded the train and on his way to Ranchore he found himself next to ABHIN IYENGAR. 

KUSH :-  Hey sir, that is my seat!

ABHIN :-  Sorry! I got confused with mine.

KUSH :-  it's ok. Hello, Myself Kush Pandey. what's your good name sir??

ABHIN :-  Hi Kush! My name is Abhin Iyengar.

KUSH :-  So Abhin, Where are you going?

ABHIN :-  I'm going to Ranchore Kush, What about you?

KUSH :-  Wow! What a coincidence, even I'm going to Ranchore brother.

ABHIN :-  That's so nice to hear. Atleast, I got a company to hang on.

KUSH :-  Yup! You're right. We can have some fun atleast.

ABHIN :-  So Kush, what do you do?

KUSH  :-  I'm an engineer, how about you?

ABHIN :-  Well, I'm also an engineer.

KUSH :- By the way, Why are you going to Ranchore? Can I know?

ABHIN :-  Ya sure, I'm going to meet my girlfriend and her dad to convince about our love. What about you?

KUSH :- Wow man!  Sounds really interesting, I'm going to meet my fiance.

ABHIN :-  Congratulations man! 

KUSH :-  Thank you! All the best for your mission.

ABHIN :-  Ha ha! Hope it goes well, Thank you.

KUSH :-  You travelling alone?

ABHIN :-  Yes.

KUSH :-  If u want any help there, you can always call me i will be in the same city. 
Here's my card, take it.

ABHIN :-  Thank you once again Kush.

KUSH :-  Can i know your story?

They both didn't had any clue that they were speaking about the same girl GOWRI RATHOR. But, destiny had decided to play with both of them. Kush had the practice of writing his day to day life experiences in his personal dairy. Hence, he decided to write down Abhin's love story in his dairy that day.

ABHIN :-  Of course, I will tell you.

Night had started to fall when GOWRI RATHOR a 25 year old girl walked down the Bengaluru city railway station gate. Chilled weather with tiny drops of rain falling on her cheek welcomed her to the 'City of Opportunities' . Her thick, wavy, long black hair gracefully falls down to her shoulders and encircles her oval-shaped face. A golden suntan usually brings out her smooth, clear complexion and high cheek bones. Her slightly arched chestnut brown eyebrows highlight her emotions by moving up and down. Her large deep blue eyes made her more attractive. Her curved nose gives her a little girl look that makes everyone wants to smile when she talks. And her mouth is a small mouth outlined by puffy lips that she often accentuates with glossy pink lipstick. When she smiles, white teeth brighten up her whole face. 
Walking down the road she found her favorite 'Hot Badam Drink', while few cab drivers offered her a paid ride asking,

DRIVER :-  'Ellige hogbeku, madam?'

GOWRI :-  Whitefield ge hogbeku, bhayya.

DRIVER :-  1000/- agatte, kodtira?

GOWRI :- Beda parvagilla, thank you.

She took the share ride to reach her relative who stays in Whitefield.
By the time she took a cab, rain started coming down heavily and she was deeply immersed in the glimpse of it.

She boarded the cab which was already taken by another guy who was also on his way to Whitefield and that guy was ABHIN IYENGAR!

Abhin, a 26 year old handsome hunk. He had pony tail cut and Nike symbol-shaped eyebrows. His long nose and half-dome cheekbones sat above his jaw. His wrestler’s shoulders were part of his burly physique. His nomad-blue eyes twinkled like stars. His derring-do personality and bass voice were a big part of his ambitious character.

In the shades of the car top and in that pre-monsoon for the first time Abhin saw Gowri drenching, dancing in the rain and slowly waking towards the doors holding her bag above her head. (love theme playing in the background)

GOWRI :-  Can you please, open the door?

ABHIN :-  Silently opens the door.

Upon Gowri's arrival, Abhin felt his heart begin to race. His eyes traced her tall slender figure, from her wavy black hair down to her dress. The closer she came, the better he could view her. Her eyes warm, a range of soft colours. Reminding him of sweet caramel. He took a deep breath.  Her broad smile transformed the night into one he would not want to forget any time soon.

He was out of his mind and couldn't speak anything with her as he was madly drenched in the beauty of her. Though he tried to speak, her beauty made everything so quite.  Time wasn't enough for him when she got down in her place leaving behind him. 
That sweet lady took his sleep for some days, he searched the whole area and couldn't find her. One fine day after his work while surfing the Facebook, he saw her pic and got to know her as Gowri. He immediately sent her a request with the message.

Day 1,

ABHIN :-  Hii

GOWRI :-  Request accepted,  hii do I know you?

ABHIN :-  I don't think so, but I know you.

GOWRI :-  Can I know how?

ABHIN :-  It was me with you, when we were coming back to home from railway station in cab few day back.  Remember?

GOWRI :-  Sorry, I really don't remember!

ABHIN :-  It's ok, My name is Abhin Iyengar. I'm also from Whitefield.

GOWRI :-  My name is Gowri Rathor. Nice to meet you and oh!  Where in Whitefield?

ABHIN :-  I stay in PG near CMRIT college. What about you?

GOWRI :-  I stay near MVJCE college with my cousin.

ABHIN  :-  So?  Where are you from?

GOWRI :-  I'm from Ranchore. What about you?

ABHIN :-  I'm from Bangalore itself. How come you are here then? Let me take a guess, you are here for a job right?

GOWRI :-  Yes, I'm here in search of job.

ABHIN :-  That's nice. Even i am searching for a job. We can search together right?

GOWRI :-  NO it's OK, I'll try on my own. Thank you!

Abhin became sad about Gowri's way of conversation and decided not to continue.

ABHIN :-  OK then got to go! Bye.

Day 2,

ABHIN :-  HII

Gowri started avoiding Abhin even though he was texting continously in Facebook.

Day 3,

ABHIN :- HII

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Day 190,

Abhin got appointed in one of the famous company and Gowri couldn't find any place In any company.
Abhin posted his life event that he got selected in X company in Facebook by seeing that Gowri was shocked and because she badly needed a job she Congratulated Abhin through the text.

GOWRI :-  Hey! Congratulations for your job.

Abhin was surprised by her message and texted back immediately with the speed and joy he was collecting from last few months.

ABHIN :-  Thank you so much. This means a lot to me.
How about you? You found any?

GOWRI :-  No not yet! Still finding something to happen!

ABHIN :-  Can i help you with that?  I know some people in my company.

GOWRI :-  That's so kind of you. I'll be waiting for you message.

They both shared their personal contacts. Abhin was flying over the clouds with joy and Gowri was left behind with the hope of getting a job. 
Their life was so different but Gowri was in a hope that Abhin would help her with this.
Abhin called her to say the good news that he had found a new job for her in his office. Gowri was amazed and started liking that guy for his kindness.

So here it starts, they both became best of friends, started accompanying each other where ever they go & also started to know each other very well. Within the fraction of months they both fell for each other.
As Gowri was from other state she felt this is not gonna work and stared controlling her feelings.
Abhin, on the other hand was planning to say her about his feeling that he had from the day one. To give her a surprise he planned for a party where he could confess his feelings for her.

With the plans going in his way Abhin called Gowri to meet him urgently.
When she arrived she saw the magical land in front of her. Petals of red roses welcomed her as a carpet to the front door, balloons started floating next to her when she entered the room, with the color papers popping above her head and romantic music in the background making her feel special made her think that she is in a dream, as she walked inside the  walls were filled with the pictures they both cherished together, passing that she saw a boat in the pool decorated with candle lights and Abhin standing in the middle of that and waiting for her to come. He welcomed her and said
"I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible, If I could ask God one thing, it would be to stop the moon. Stop the moon and make this night and your beauty last forever.”
I LOVE YOU GOWRI FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
Gowri was totally drenched in the love shown by him and without hesitating she confessed her feelings to.

At this point of time RINI who found this Kush's dairy accidentally was left with blank about what happened next as Kush hasn't completed this story where the remaining paged were left blank!

So Who is Rini?
How did Rini get this dairy?
What happened to their love story?
Did they broke?
How will Rini find out what happened next?
Does Abhin succeed in his love?
Will Kush marry Gowri?
What will happen next?
Etc..

Find out answers for all these in the next part!

Thank you.

My Secret Agent Pet Cat

​Few days back I went to a celestial prophet who gave me an intriguing anecdote about my past life. It was exceptionally amusing however, I would love to share that. So here it is! 

I lived in a city where it was led by an abhorrent man with malicious desire! I just had couple of companions there, however my closest companion was my neighbor EMMA WATSON who really liked me yet was dithering to state that. We both adored pets and consequently purchased felines for the two of us. 

I named my feline Zack and Emma named her feline Pinky. From the very first moment my feline was carrying on bafflingly as it was vanishing from us when we needed to play. Toward the starting we disregarded that reality and went ahead to play as we like. However, my feline Zack ended up being a mystery specialist from an association which trains pets to end up plainly mystery operators and battle against fiendish. 

My Zack was exceptionally skilled and was a pioneer for every one of the operators in that association, despite the fact that he is only a feline( he's only a feline, felines won't do much) he was a specialist in hand to hand fighting and he was prepared to battle the shrewd ruler who was administering our city. That malevolent ruler was building an abhorrent supplies every day to wreck the world and it was being annihilated by my Zack day by day. He had a mystery openings all through my home to get to his mystery task room. 

The leader of that mystery association who additionally runs the pet shop was the fundamental reason I took Zack. On the off chance that the mystery of my Zack was uncovered to our family he needed to abandon us and we ought to go under interrogation(neuralized like in the film MIB). So he kept it mystery from every one of us till one day I saw a gap in my room under my bed when driven me to that mystery task room where I saw a SUPER SONIC JETS, HIGHLY SOPHISTICATED ROOM, ROCKET and considerably more things to do everything what he needs. I was stunned to see that and ensured I am not in a fantasy. He even had his own ID card which I found on the floor.. Where his name was specified as The Secret Agent Jack and he had his photograph stuck on his divider in which he was wearing a COW BOY cap on his head! 

Zack got me there and let me know everything by writing in the paper! I resembled man genuinely? I have a pet feline who is splendid than me, who resembles a dairy animals kid and who can likewise compose things! I was in a stun and I went oblivious there itself. When I woke up I was in my stay with Zack remaining on his 2 legs and paper in his grasp saying his identity. Later I came to realize that even Emma's pet Pinky was likewise a mystery specialist. As a result of the security issues the leader of the mystery association needed to ensure that my pet must be with me and I needed to overlook my most critical day of my life to my cherishing pet and I experienced neuralization like in the motion picture MIB. 

Normal folks! Subsequent to watching MIB I had the piece of information how to get past that thing! 😂 

I had my Reebok goggles on when I experienced that. My Zack had took some selfies and recordings when we were having a fabulous time! 😂😂 however we duped the head, regardless I assist zack with his central goal and I trust one day he will prevail in that. 

One final counsel, Even on the off chance that you cherish don't not believe your pets at any cost it can be a mystery operator, a fear monger or a revolutionarist.. And so forth.. 

Be ready, be watchful.. 😉

The 2 mysterious phone calls

My friend used to live in a building that had two levels of sub-basements, with the piece of lab equipment workers typically worked on in the lowest basement. He had the only key to the basement. There was a wired phone in there, and we did party late some nights in his home… but not this night as his parents were out of station, he called me to be with him for night out.

We were the only two sleeping in that apartment when I woke up to a call on my  cellphone from my friends cellphone at 3 AM who was sleeping next to me, i was in hysterics and asking why he scared me. He was in a deep sleep and he had no clue about that, we searched all his home to make sure it's not a prank, Yes it's not a prank. We both don't know what happened exactly!

Apparently i received a call from that basement phone just a minute later, with someone who sounded like him slowly repeating my name, until crackling and fading out. My apartment was 10 miles away from his. He thought i was lying, but he saw the 3 AM call from the basement phone logged on my cell himself. We made sure it was locked and no one can enter as we were the only guys who had the key to open that gate.
What just happened here? 😐
We were not dreaming!
That mystery still remains unsolved!

Still freaks us the fuck out.

The unknown

I don’t remember this, but my mom tells the story often. When I was somewhere around 3 to 4 years old, I used to play in my basement. My mom once asked me what I did down there, and I told her I would play with the kids that lived down there. She had me show here where they lived and I pointed to a huge coal furnace that was disconnected, with attached coal bin. She realized the door to the furnace was just latched in place, and kinda freaked out, thinking that I was playing inside. She had my dad weld the door on the furnace and coal bin shut.

Apparently I came up the next day crying. My mom says that when she asked me what was wrong, I had told her that my friends won’t come out to play anymore. They’re all gone.

Sleep paralysis

I experienced what I think was sleep paralysis not too long ago. One morning I woke up, but I was still in that groggy, half-asleep state that leaves you only slightly aware of everything. So I’m laying in bed and in my head I start to hear an argument between what I somehow instinctively know is a man and his two parents. The arguments gets heated and I hear the son kill the two parents. As the parents die their voices fade and a narrator talks directly to me:

“Think quick: you’re the witness to a violent crime. What do you do?”

As he talks, the words he says flash before my eyes. I can see police lights flash red and blue in front of me.

“This may seem like a real nightmare. But there’s just one thing…”

My vision clears and I can see my room.

“This is not a dreaaaaaaaam.” I tried to pinch myself but I couldn't feel my hand and I think it was heavy.

As the voice says the last word it turns much lower, more distorted, more demonic. My body begins to shake violently and I feel like I’m about to die. Then suddenly, I’m thrust from my half asleep state and become aware of everything.

Before realizing what just happened, Suddenly some gallons of water splashed and I heard my mom screaming kamangi Nan magne eddelo 11 gante aytu mundede (idiot wake-up its already 11 o'clock).

It may seem relatively tame compared to some of the stories but at the time it was terrifying, especially since the voice seemed to be aware I was sleeping and wanted to make me doubt it.

Shit just got real

I was sitting downstairs minding my own business when my sister yells down for me to come up stairs, I argue back for her to come down and stop being lazy. This goes on for around two minutes and I am highly irritated. All of a sudden I go cold and realise, my sister is in Japan for travel. But it was her exact voice. So at this point I am freaking out and I grab and knife and go upstairs, walk into my sisters room and the rain on the window was dripping down except for one circle around the size of a plate, which the rain was not touching but drizzling around the edges. So very strange. I called my sister and she confirmed she was fine and had no idea what it was upstairs.

Later, I woke up on my bed and realized that I don't have a sister! 😱

I am not a thief

Basically, as you know, I’m really bad at writing this blog and I always seem to start posts without finishing them. My problem is I’m lazy and unmotivated. I do this thing at night where a basically write a blog post but in my head instead of on here because I’m too lazy to convert it to proper words on a screen. But I am here now! There are many things we need to discuss so let’s get started!

Firstly, I seem to always set of security alarms in Super Malls, WHY?!?! I do not appreciate being stopped by security like I am some sort of thief! Let me tell you, if I am walking into a store and the security alarm goes off, I’m not stealing anything! How can you steal something on the way in? If I was going into the store I’d stolen from with a stolen item, I would not be going to university because I’d be stupid. I think I have found the culprit that is doing this however… It is hopefully this tiny barcode sticker which contains a tiny piece of foil located inside my purse. If I beep again I’m going to get the security to search everything because this is not okay.

Secondly, I have recently watched all 6 seasons of Game of thrones within the space of about 3 weeks. Yes, this is not advisable as it seems like the world has stopped spinning and you forget to actually go outside and have a life, but it is just that addictive. It was the best thing I’d ever seen, I highly recommend it! It is basically a film in every episode and it’s so smart, it keeps you on your toes the whole time. I had started to write a blog at the beginning of the last month about  girl and how amazing that was and it was, but in a different way to this. Just go and watch it! … NOW. This makes me seem extremely sad watching so much NETFLIX & HOTSTAR but what else do you do when it’s always cold and dark and raining?

Something that is bothering me: I’m too anxious. Every morning I get a funny feeling in my belly and feel sick just as I’m about to go to school because I’m anxious about it. You see, I get anxious about stupid little things that I know I definitely shouldn’t do. For example, I got crazy nervous and worked up about asking my teacher to leave class early because I had an appointment. What the hell?! I fear life like it’s death. This isn’t normal, people don’t get worked up over such small things. Every time I go and do something, I’m calculating what’s going to happen and what I’m going to do next always planning and planning and planning. It’s drives me crazy that I can’t just stop and be, I’m always looking into the future planning what to do next. My mind is crazy. What do I do?

Philosophical question of the day: what really is time? Time is basically a man-made invention created for us to live an easier life. Time only gives us all a standard point to make meetings and plan our day (my favourite activity it seems). I’m finding it very hard to define time without saying the word time or day or hour etc. The dictionary definition is: “the indefinite continued progress of existence and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole.” This sounds extremely complicated. The truth is how can we really say what time is? Time is happening always and always will be happening. Does time exist? We say it does because we made it real, but is time an actual thing? And if it is, which we assume it is, how can we know if we are measuring it right? Time is just there to compare against others (like the time it takes it get somewhere). We rely so much on this time, more than most things in fact because it seems constant but is it? Does it fluctuate without us knowing? Time is too confusing and I’m not a physicist so anyone that is please explain this all to me please. I’ve confused myself with this question.