I know why I was drawn to you. We had the same darkness inside.
we fell apart slowly,
not noticing the bits and pieces of us that flaked away
and drifted into the cotton candy clouds.
the last few months were a facade,
laughter that once gurgled out of us in uncontrollable gasps
suddenly became forced, us closing our eyes, searching for memories to laugh over.
conversation that once exhausted us both, leaving us speechless and enamored
became exhausting conversation, both of us without much to say, mistaking our silence for a connection deeper than words.
you couldn’t feed me i love you’s anymore,
and even if you could,
i don’t know how i would’ve stomached them.
we only stuck around so long because of habit.
good morning texts were habit,
10 pm phone calls were habit,
you were a habit-
like finger biting and toe tapping,
one of those ones you never have the strength to kick,
just because they aren’t so fatal.
and we were in love once, that i won’t deny,
but our compatibility had expired.
both of us had grown,
from each other,
ready for new things,
more things that probably wouldn’t last forever.
so we fell apart slowly,
one day noticing that we were but fragments of the people we were before,
living on a last breath.
it was then, that we took that last breath,
set each other free,
and began search for another love to make home in.
you say that
we may have been wasting time
precious time.
but i say that
lovers who are not meant for forever,
won’t make a love less worthwhile.
